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63
Than summe of hir frendys cam to hir and seyd it wer mor ese to
hir to gon owt of
the town than abydyn therin, so meche pepyl was ageyn hir. And
sche seyd sche schulde
abydyn ther as long as God wolde. "For her," sche seyd, "in this
town have I synned.
Therfor it is worthy that I suffyr sorwe in this town ther ageyn.
And yet have I not so
meche sorwe ne schame as I have deservyd, for I have trespasyd
agens God. I thank
almythy God what that evyr he sendith me, and I pray God that
al maner of wikkydnes
that any man schal seyn of me in this world may stonde into remissyon
of my synnys,
and any goodnesse that any man schal seyn of the grace that God
werkyth in me may
turnyn God to worschep and to preysyng and magnifying of hys
holy name wythowtyn
ende, for al maner of worschep longith to hym, and al despite,
schame, and reprefe
longyth to me, and that have I wel deservyd." An other tyme hyr
confessowr cam to
hir into a chapel of owr Lady, clepyd the Jesyne, seying, "Margery,
what schal ye now
do? Ther is no mor agen yow but the mone and seven sterrys. Anethe
is ther any man
that heldith wyth yow but I alone." Sche seyd to hir confessowr,
"Ser, beth of a good
comforte, for it schal ben ryth wel at the last. And I telle
yow trewly my Lord Jhesu
gevyth me gret comforte in my sowle, and ellys schulde I fallyn
in dispeyr. My blisful
Lord Crist Jhesu wil not latyn me dyspeyryn for noon holy name
that the good frer
hath, for my Lord tellyth me that he is wroth wyth hym, and he
seyth to me it wer
bettyr he wer nevyr born, for he despisith hys werkys in me."
Also owr Lord seyd to
hir, "Dowtyr, yyf he be a preyste that despisith the, knowyng
wel wherfor thu wepist
and cryist, he is acursyd." And on a tyme, as sche was in the
priowrys cloystyr and
durst not abydyn in the cherch for inqwietyng of the pepil wyth
hir crying, owr Lord
seyd unto hir beyng in gret hevynes, "Dowtyr, I bydde the gon
ageyn into cherch, for
I schal takyn awey fro the thy criyng that thu schalt no mor
cryin so lowde ne on that
maner wyse as thu hast don beforn thei thu woldist." Sche dede
the comawndment of
owr Lord and telde hir confessowr lich as sche felt, and it fel
in trewth as sche felt.
Sche cryed no mor aftyr so lowde ne on that maner as sche had
don beforn, but sche
sobbyd wondirly aftyr and wept as sor as evyr sche dede beforn,
sumtyme lowde and
sumtyme stille, as God wolde mesur it hys selfe. Than meche pepil
levyd that sche
durst no lengar cryen for the good frer prechyd so ageyn hir
and wold not suffyr hir in
no maner. Than thei heldyn hym an holy man and hir a fals feynyd
ypocrite. And, as
summe spoke evyl of hir aforn for sche cryed, so sum spoke now
evyl of hir for sche
cryid not. And so slawndir and bodily angwisch fel to hir on
every syde, and al was
encresyng of hir gostly comfort. Than owr mercyful Lord seyd
unto hys unworthy
servawnt, "Dowtyr, I must nedys comfortyn the, for now thu hast
the ryth wey to
hevyn. Be this wey cam I to hevyn and alle my disciplys, for
now thu schalt knowe the
bettyr what sorwe and schame I suffyrd for thy lofe, and thu
schalt have the mor
compassyon whan thu thynkyst on my Passyon.
Dowtyr, I have telde the many tymys
that the frer schulde seyn evyl of the. Therfor I warne the that
thu telle hym not of the
prevy cownsel whech I have schewyd to the, for I wille not that
he here it of thy
mowth. And, dowtyr, I telle the forsothe he schal be chastised
scharply. As hys name is
now, it schal ben throwyn down and thin schal ben reysed up.
And I schal makyn as
many men to lofe the for my lofe as han despisyd the for my lofe.
Dowtyr, thu schalt be
in cherch whan he schal be wythowtyn. In this chirche thu hast
suffyrd meche schame
and reprefe for the gyftys that I have govyn the and for the
grace and goodnes that I have
wrowt in the, and therfore in this cherche and in this place
I schal ben worschepyd in
the. Many a man and woman schal seyn it is wel sene that God
lovyd hir wel. Dowtyr, I
schal werkyn so mech grace for the that al the werld schal wondryn
and merveylyn of
my goodnes." Than the sayd creatur seyd unto our Lord wyth gret
reverens, "I am not
worthy that thu schuldist schewyn sweche grace for me. Lord,
it is anow to me that thu
safe my sowle fro endles dampnacyon be thi gret mercy." "It is
my worschep, dowtyr,
that I schal do, and therfore I wil that thu have no wyl but
my wyl. The lesse prise that
thu settyst be thyselfe, the mor prise set I be the, and the
bettyr wil I lovyn the, dowtyr.
Loke thu have no sorwe for erdly good. I have asayd the in poverté,
and I have chas-
tised the as I wole myselfe, bothe wythinne forth in thi sowle
and wythowte forth
thorw slawndyr of the pepil. Lo, dowtyr, I have grawntyd the
thin owyn desyr, for thu
schuldist non other purgatory han but in this werld only. Dowtyr,
thu seyst oftyn to
me in thi mende that riche men han gret cawse to lovyn me wel,
and thu seyst ryth
soth, for thu seyst I have govyn hem meche good wherwyth thei
may servyn me and
lovyn me. But, good dowtyr, I prey the, love thu me wyth al thyn
hert, and I schal gevyn
the good anow to lovyn me wyth, for hevyn and erde schulde rathyr
faylyn than I
schulde faylyn the. And, yyf other men faylyn, thu schalt not
faylyn. And, thow alle
thy frendys forsake the, I schal nevyr forsakyn the. Thu madist
me onys stiward of
thin howsholde and executor of alle thy good werkys, and I schal
be a trewe styward
and a trewe executor unto the, fulfillyng of al thi wil and al
thy desyr. And I schal
ordeyn for the, dowtyr, as for myn owyn modyr and as for myn
owyn wyfe." |