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85
On a tyme, as the sayd creatur was knelyng beforn an awter of
the cros and seying
on an oryson, hir eyne wer evyr togedirward as thow sche schulde
a slept. And at the last
sche myth not chesyn; sche fel in a lityl slomeryng, and anon
aperyd verily to hir
syght an awngel
al clothyd in white as mech as it had ben a lityl childe beryng an
howge boke beforn hym. Than seyd the creatur to the childe, er
ellys to the awngel,
" sche seyd, "This is the boke of lyfe." And sche saw in the
boke the Trinité
and al
in gold. Than seyd sche to the childe, "Wher is my name?" The
childe answeryd and
seyd, "Her is thi name at the Trinyté foot wretyn," and
therwyth he was ago, sche wist
not how. And anon aftyr owr Lord Jhesu Crist spak unto hir and
seyde, "Dowtyr, loke
that thu be now trewe and stedfast and have a good feith, for
thi name is wretyn in
hevyn in the boke of lyfe, and this was an awngel that gaf the
comfort. And therfor,
dowtyr, thu must be ryth mery, for I am ryth besy bothe for none
and aftyr none to
drawe thin hert into myn hert, for thu schuldist kepyn thi mende
altogedyr on me, and
schal most encresyn thi love to God. For, dowtyr, yyf thu wilt
drawyn aftyr Goddys
cownsel, thu maist not don amys, for Goddys cownsel is to be
meke, pacient in charité
and in chastité. An other tyme, as the creatur lay in
hir contempplacyon in a chapel of
owr Lady, hir mynde was ocupiid in the Passyon
of owr Lord Jhesu Crist, and hyr
thowt verily that she saw owr Lord aperyn to hir gostly syght
in hys manhod with hys
wowndys bledyng as fresch as thow he had ben scorgyd beforn hir.
And than sche
wept and cryid wyth alle the myghtys of hir body, for, yyf hir
sorwe wer gret beforn
this gostly syght, yet it was wel grettar aftyr than it was beforn,
and hir love was mor
encresyd to owr Lord ward. And than had sche gret wondyr that
owr Lord wolde
becomyn man and suffyr so grevows peynys for hir that was so
unkynde a creatur to
hym. An other tyme, as sche was in a chirch
of Seynt Margarete in the qwer,
beyng in
gret swetnes and devocyon wyth gret plenté of teerys,
sche askyd owr Lord Jhesu
Crist how sche myght best plesyn hym. And he answeryd to hyr
sowle, seying, "Dowtyr,
have mynde of thi wykkydnes and thynk on my goodnes." Than sche
preyd many
tymys and oftyn thes wordys, "Lord, for thy gret goodnes have
mercy on al my
wykkydnes as wistly as I was nevyr so wykkyd as thu art good
ne nevyr may be thow
I wolde, for thu art so good that thu mayst no bettyr be. And
therfor it is gret wondyr
that evyr ony man schulde be departyd fro the wythowtyn ende."
Than, as sche lay stille
in the qwer, wepyng and mornyng
for hir synnys, sodeynly sche was in a maner of
slep. And anon sche saw wyth hir gostly eye owr Lordys body lying
beforn hir, and
hys hevyd, as hir thowt, fast be hir wyth hys blissyd face upward,
the semeliest man
that evyr myth be seen er thowt. And than cam on wyth a baselard
knyfe to hir syght
and kytt that precyows body al on long in the brest. And anon
sche wept wondyr sor,
havyng more mynde, pité, and compassyon of the passyon
of owr Lord Jhesu Crist
than sche had beforn. And so every day encresyd hir mynde and
hir lofe to owr Lord,
blissyd mote he ben, and the mor that hir love encresyd the mor
was hir sorwe for
synne of the pepil. An other tyme, the seyd creatur beyng in
a chapel of owr Lady sor
wepyng in the mynde of owr Lordys passyon and swech other gracys
and goodnes as
owr Lord ministryd to hir mynde, and sodeynly, sche wist not
how sone, sche was in
a maner of slep. And anon in the syght of hir sowle sche sey
owr Lord standyng ryght
up ovyr hir so ner that hir thowt sche toke hys toos in hir hand
and felt hem, and to hir
felyng it weryn as it had ben very flesch and bon. And than sche
thankyd God of al, for
thorw thes gostly sytys hir affeccyon was al drawyn into the
manhod of Crist and
into the mynde of hys passyon
unto that tyme that it plesyd owr Lord to gevyn hir
undirstondyng of hys inundirstondabyl Godhed. As is wretyn beforn,
thes maner of
visyons and felyngys sche had sone aftyr hir conversyon, whan
sche was fully set and
purposyd to servyn God wyth al hir hert into hir power, and had
fully left the worlde,
and kept the chirche bothe for none and aftyr none, and most
specialy in Lent tyme
whan sche wyth gret instawns and mech preyer had leve of hir
husbond to levyn chast
and clene and dede gret bodily penawns er sche went to Jerusalem.
But aftyrwardys,
whan hir husbond and sche wyth on assent had mad avow of chastité,
as is beforn
wretyn, and sche had ben at Rome
and Jerusalem
and suffyrd mech despite and repref
for hir wepyng and hir criyng, owr Lord of hys hy mercy drow
hir affeccyon into hys
Godhed, and that was mor fervent in lofe and desyr and mor sotyl
in undirstondyng
than was the manhod. And nevyrthelesse the fyr of love encresyd
in hir, and hir
undirstandyng was mor illumynyd and hir devocyon mor fervent
than it was befor
whyl sche had hir meditacyon and hir contemplacyon only in hys
manhod, yet had
sche not that maner of werkyng in crying as sche had befor, but
it was mor sotyl and
mor softe and mor esy to hir spiryt to beryn and plentyuows in
teerys as evyr it was
beforn. An other tyme, as this creatur was in an hows of the Frer
Prechowrys wythinne
a chapel of owr Lady, stondyng in hir preyerys, hir ey ledys
went a lityl togedyr wyth
a maner of slep, and sodeynly sche sey, hir thowt, owr Lady in
the fayrest syght that
evyr sche say, holdyng a fayr white kerche in hir hand and seying
to hir, "Dowtyr, wilt
thu se my sone?" And anon forth wyth sche say owr Lady han hyr
blissyd sone in hir
hand and swathyd hym ful lytely in the white
kerche that sche myth wel beholdyn
how sche dede. The creatur had than a newe gostly joye and a
newe gostly comfort,
wheche was so mervelyows that sche cowde nevyr tellyn it as sche
felt it. |